New Endeavors and Old Fears


Earlier this year when Jon told me he wanted me to help with the income-generation jewelry business at our church here to see if we could grow it, I wasn’t sure what that would look like.

First of all, I hardly wore jewelry– ever. Second, I didn’t have any clue what was in style– at all. And thirdly, I’m a literature person. Well, I’m also partly a graphics person, but I primarily had been focusing on writing and literary pursuits, with the creation of a painting or graphic every now and then.

So when the two ladies who were leading the endeavor dropped out suddenly last spring because they had other commitments– it was either let the whole project fall apart or take up the reigns and figure it out along the way.

Well, I guess you know which one we chose.

But honestly, I was scared to death and tried to pray my way out of it– for most of the summer. Like Moses often felt inadequate for the task. I kept thinking “We’ve got the wrong person here Lord. What in the world do I know about selling stuff and making jewelry?” The irony is, once I sort of dug in and decided to go for it, it’s been interesting to see how, in some ways, I’m wired to do exactly what I’m doing.

First of all, I love to produce tangible products. This has always been part of my personality, whether it’s graphics, paintings, stories, etc. I love to make lovely somethings from scratch. I also love to help women in particularly figure out why they were created and to help them grow and succeed. I love that we are helping women who have no training or marketable skills become trained in something that can help their families thrive. Many of our ladies are mothers just like me and I cannot imagine the pain of not being able to provide a simple meal or clothing for my children.

In a place like India you can’t help everyone, but you can figure out who God has put in your path and start from there. 

I believe these ladies are the “who” and that right now I’m supposed to trust that even in my inadequacy that God can use me to be a blessing and to lend my brand of leadership to this business.

And thankfully, there is still work going on in their slum in the areas of education and medical support. Both much needed in an area of extreme poverty like the one where these ladies live.

Now, what is this little income generation thing of which I speak? Well, glad you asked and I’ll get to that… eventually. We’re not quite ready yet to put everything out there yet, but I can honestly say I’m excited to see how our products are received. I’m also excited to wear them.

So with a little fear and much hope I’m walking forward. I have no idea what this will turn into or if it will go well at all. And I’m really trying to not over think things, but just keep taking steps one day at a time. And sometimes in the living every day in the flurry of life that I’m in right now, I forget the details and the story quite easily. So this blog is going to be my reminder of this little journey I’m on and all of the dreams that are just beginning, even as I settle into mid-life, with the hopes that the best is still yet to come.

1 thought on “New Endeavors and Old Fears”

  • Yay! You started writing again! I can’t believe that I only just got around to see this. I know you’ve been occupied with many things lately and are tired, what with ‘numero cinco’ on its way soon. Can’t wait to read more!


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